Are You Out There?

Glad you found me...

This is not unlike when I began my radio career 6 years ago. I sat in that studio, my heart beating out of my chest, totally uncertain if anyone was listening...some of you were. Miraculously, some of you stayed. And today, I walked away from it all.

Tonight I begin writing a new blog, so we can stay in touch...are any of you out there?

So many calls and emails, some saying they felt as though they were losing a dear friend. My heart is heavy tonight knowing that some of you are sad. Truthfully, I'm sad too. But, I'm excited as well, excited for this new adventure the Lord is leading me upon. A little scared wondering if the significance I've had in some of your lives will now be over. Will, after a little time, what we shared each day from 4-6 be forgotten?

So many mixed emotions.

Through this departure from my show I've heard wonderful things about you. I know that some of you have truly taken to heart that your life is not a dress rehearsal. I've heard of many families beginning adoption processes! Many of you have begun to volunteer and share your gifts with others. Still more of you have said you're a little less fearful of change. Some of you asked for prayer as you face a choice like I've made...to follow where God is leading, even though it seems adventurous and uncertain.

When I pushed open the sliding glass door tonight I was greeted by squeals and shrieks of "Momma's Home"! My 7 year old hugged my neck and said "no more afternoons apart!" I squeezed her tightly and tried to push away the bittersweet of turning off my microphone tonight.

What will I feel like tomorrow at 4? Perhaps I'm just a little melancholy tonight, but I'm worried about it...someone else will be speaking in my timeslot...and I can't go back.

But I will make phone calls tomorrow. I will schedule more performances for the Ugandan Orphans Choir, and I will know that there are children waiting in difficult places in the world, waiting for US sponsors to care enough to lift them out of poverty. It's an uncertain future, but in the words of Childcare Worldwide's Peru director, Alwin Rahmel: "We all must do what we can for the children."

Tomorrow a new day dawns, no more radio host...just a woman doing what I can for the children.

I'll keep writing, if you'll keep reading. Let me hear your comments. I need feedback!